今晚心情好down...
我從來都知道你付出多少不等如你可以收獲多少嘅道理，但我總以為兩者之間係屬於一個正比例。
近日都算得上係頻頻練琴，因為學左啲新scale，幾首歌仔，同埋一首study... 哩首study 拉左好幾堂喇，因為老師想鍛鍊我拉弓嘅速度，所以要我用唔同嘅弓法去拉首study.. 平日就練下scale ，歌仔同埋study，今個星期日，就專攻首study，練到手指頭又痛又痺添。 我嘅朋友擔心我push自己push 得過份，反而會減低我對violin嘅passion... 當時我仲好有信心唔發生係我身上，因為我好清楚自己有幾鍾意拉小提琴，好肯定自己唔係三分鐘熱度。
因為其中有首歌仔老師只係係上一堂臨尾拉左一次俾我聽咋，嚴格嚟講佢未教晒我架，係我靠自己練習，我都知節拍係我嘅弱項，但係我覺得我都拉得ok 似樣o架喇... 但係呢，一係老師面前拉就會緊張起嚟，平時自己練習時都係嘛嘛地，緊張親就拉得更差。
老師一句"唔係好得喎..." 今晚聽起嚟，特別難入耳.. 唸起自己學左都有十個月多，但仍然有好多不足之處... （拍子又唔啱，音準又未係次次都啱晒，按弦嘅手勢又有待改進，手掌唔夠鬆，握琴太緊，手指擺位硬係怪怪的，分弓又唔夠均勻.. ) 我拉拉下琴喊左出嚟囉... 搞到老師一時間唔知點好...
我未致於放棄，但心灰係有一點點... 所以好down，返到屋企唸吓唸吓，啲眼淚不其言湧晒出嚟.. 忽然覺得自己缺乏力量，冇以前咁堅强添... 是我太累嗎?
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喊左一大場，個人真係鬆左啲... 惟有再努力啲下苦功吧!!
2 comments:
chunni... we all know practice makes perfect... but being too sense would affect your performance as well...
It is good that you have a high target to yourselve, but 10 months is really not a long time for instrument learning... yet. This 'thing' really takes time.
It is already very good that you can keep up and do the practicing, as you already have to work in the daytime.
It will take time in the beginning as you need to learn and master the basic skills, but you will be rewarded if you persist...
Dun be upset... Support u always! =)
Birdie, many thanks for your kind words and support.. No worries, I am fine now.. I will keep up my practice and I am sure I won't give up.. Really hope that I can master the basic skills!
I'll keep your words in mind and remind myself during my practice in the future.. you too add oil on your Cello!
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